Sarcastic Sweets

I am, in real life, an extremely sarcastic, occasionally quite abrupt person. It doesn't always come across in my writing because I try to write with the mindset that no one else is reading this. That tends to make everything seem intimate and read much more like a diary. So here we go: Dear Diary, 

I know I'm a sarcastic, sometimes a little rough around the edges type of person. The problem I have is when my sarcasm goes from light hearted to coming off as mean spirited. Unfortunately it happens much more than I would like it to. Quite a few of my friends have stories in their back pockets about specific times when I was far too unedited with people. It tends to be people who haven't been around me long enough to know that I don't really mean everything that I say. Especially if I'm meeting a person for the first time or if I'm particularly nervous, the comments start to fly. 

  

I've been trying really hard the past few months to reshape some things about my personality. I will always be who I am, but I want to be the best possible version of myself I can be. I know I'll always be slightly harder to take than the stereotypical bubbly blond, miss giggles a lot, but I'm ok with that. I just don't want to bombarded people within the first five minutes of meeting me with an unexpected or  exceedingly short comment. I know I wouldn't like it, so why have I always been that way towards other people?

It's especially hard for me to remember that this is something I've been working on when I'm around people who are also extremely sarcastic. I forget to pause for that breath before I respond. Then it escalates. Sarcasm can go from kind of funny to completely mean with the change of a few words or a tilt of the head. 

  

I can and have to some extent become much better at curbing my initial rude and sarcastic comments to people I've just met. Luckily, I decided this was something I wanted to work on before I started meeting a whole slew of new people. As time went on and I started to work on a hundred different things about myself, I naturally forget about a few. I feel like as I begin to get more comfortable in my own skin again, every once in a while I see my attitude starting to shift back.

Then I start to think about the whole theory of love and be loved. If I want to be a better person, than I have to start treating people the way that I want to be treated. One of the oldest lessons we've all ever learned, but sometimes it takes a little reminder before things really start to sink in. You can't expect people to be sweet and kind to you, if you don't act the same way to everyone else out there, right? 

Tank from H & M, Skirt from Anthropologie, Heels from Bloomingdales 
Vintage Ring from my Grandma, Pink Lipstick borrowed
Harness Necklace Borrowed from Clyde's Rebirth 2011 Spring/Summer Lookbook

I've very aware of the fact that I'll never be described or introduced as the "sweet girl". I think I'm ok with that too. There has to be a way for me to keep my sarcastic nature in tact, while still being a nice person. I am a kind, warmhearted, compassionate person and I generally only have the best of intentions. I just don't always know how to say the right thing at the right time. I'm working on it. 

Goodnight dear diary. xoxo, Morgan

Photos by Merl, Cheering section by Jentine

Many thanks to Merl and Jentine for helping me get ready on Saturday night. I had the basic idea of what I wanted to wear all lined up, but they really helped me pull everything together. I figured I'd give the lipstick look a try after Merl slapped some on me for a few of the Lookbook shots. Jentine was basically my cheering section the whole night out. I did feel slightly fancy walking around with the long flowy hot pink skirt on, but it was my party and I'll cry, I mean dress up if I want to.