I feel like I've been moving at half speed the last few weeks. When I step back and take a look at what I've been doing I haven't really had that much to do but I feel preoccupied, absorbed, and busy. It could be just the way I'm handling it that makes me feel like I have so much to do, when the reality is that its a very manageable amount.
It's hasn't just been the list of things to do, but also the to-do lists that lead up to each activity. I find myself starting to break things down into sets of steps. I have friends coming into town means that I need to do a major re-haul spring cleaning to my entire apartment. The weather is getting warmer means I have to come out of hibernation and start taking care of my body again. I have a birthday coming up means that I have to start planning and checking out places to bring people. It's not just the occasions, it is everything leading up to them that fills my time, and is probably why I feel that it's taking so much longer to complete things than it normally should. (And other things on the agenda including work and life decisions and all that jazz.)
I'm a procrastinator by nature. When it comes to pretty much anything I'll find a way to put it off. Even things like getting out of my car, or going to bed. This is probably related to the fact that I hate rushing. Being spontaneous and rushing are two very different things. I like to be spontaneous, book last minute trips, make quick plans with friends. Rushing places leaves me feeling frazzled, which is why I avoid it at all costs, which is probably why I always end up taking the more step-by-step approach. It pushes the final step further off.
The hard part is that as of now I don't really know any other way to get by. I don't want to always be preoccupied with the next thing, and the next, and the next. I'm starting to make some changes that will hopefully help me feel more under control. Recognizing that I should be able to handle being busy in a better way is definitely a start.
Silk Pants from Anthropologie, Jeffrey Campbell Oxfords from Modcloth, Belt borrowed from my brother
Top (Dress) Borrowed from Terra, Harness from Clyde's Rebirth
I know many of you also work full time, maintain your internet presence (whatever way that may be), stay on top of being healthy, have time to spend with friends, travel on the weekends, and on and on. It seems even harder to organize how to do it when I write it all out. Each part takes up time and emotional commitment. Those are the reasons I feel like I've been such a slow poke recently. How do you keep up with everything while staying sane? Organizational skills, therapy sessions, practicing yoga, unheard of amounts of energy? What works for you?
On another note, Terra and I swapped a few items a while back. I asked her if I could borrow any basic black pieces since my closet was really bare in that area. She sent over two dresses (one I wore here) for me to borrow. It's been a few months, but I finally got around to wearing both of them. I wore this on the drive out to my parents a few weekends ago. Comfortable and menwear-ish with a little sass thrown in courtesy of the first harness I bought from Ms. Merl. Now all that's left to do is impatiently wait to see how Terra decides to style the top I sent her.
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